I'm kind of starting a new journey that I'm pretty excited/anxious about. I have decided to homeschool Theo for preschool. Well, seeing it written out like that makes it seem like I've been wigging out for nothing! It's preschool. Pre School.
Well, my OCD is in full vigor and I have researched a ton and figured out almost exactly how I want this to go down. I am in the process of lesson planning, craft material acquiring, book ordering, and self-sabotaging on Pinterest.
In truth, I really feel like this is the right choice for him and our family right now. We can't really afford the kind of preschool the older kids enjoyed, and I didn't want to send him to something I was unsure about.
Also CONFESSION: I don't spend enough INTENTIONAL time with Theo. It's quite sad, really. I've realized that I try to give him busy stuff to do while I go do the "important things". Most of my dealings with him seem to be discipline and getting him out of my way. That is awful to see written!
He is one of my most precious gifts and I have been squandering it by thinking that everything else is more important. I could write a whole book about this topic as it is so fresh on my mind and is peppered in every action I take.
So with that being said, I am excited to sit with him and look in his sweet face and teach him. We are using the Before Five in a Row curriculum, which is literature based, so I get to snuggle him while reading, sit with him at the table while he paints and writes, go on field trips with him, make cool alphabet snacks, play games, and just spend time with this precious fella.
I choose this as my verse for the season:
Colossians 3:23-24 "Work hard and cheerfully at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people. Remember that the Lord will give you an inheritance as your reward, and the Master you are serving is Christ." NLT
Thursday, August 13, 2015
Monday, August 10, 2015
Meandering Ponderings
Boom! That's how quick the last few years have passed.
The children are all growing so fast and maturing at a rate I don't think is fair.
We are still here in CA - flying by the seat of our pants.
Trying now to raise preteens in this new age. Well, "tweens" I guess? And a preschooler. Together.
Trying not to cringe when I hear my four year old say, "whatevs" or "Boom! That's what!!" or "Your mama!" See what these "tweens" have done!
Trying not to cheer too loud when I hear my "tweens" spell the word "stupid" or "dumb" for that matter so as to protect the little ears. See what this four year old has done!
The question that lurks within my brain is this one... "What am I going to do once Theo's in kindergarten?" I ask myself this because it is one often asked to me. I reply with something like, "Hopefully I will go back to school and get my masters!" or "I'm not sure, I would love to get a job and start helping Travis out with the finances." But really, I have no clue. I waffle so much and see the benefits of going back to school, getting a job, and staying home to be available. So, I don't know!! The idea of figuring this out almost haunts me.
I know we are financially burdened with me at home with the kids. I know my mind suffers from not being challenged by new learning, that is just how I am wired - it is a burden. I know as the kids get older they continue to need my presence - if not more than before.
My own psychosis has me feel that each one of these choices is selfish. Each one is wrong. There is no right answer. There is no answer that will give me peace. Every way I turn there is this gut feeling that I will never be doing the right thing.
That is where I need God's grace every single day. I need God to fill in the gaps for all the problems of my day. I need God to fill my soul. This sacrifice of me being at home is not wasted, and hopefully the eventual evolution of me working or learning away from the home will not be the undoing of our family.
There's been a self-deprecating habit I have of considering myself less than everyone in my family. My needs are usually last on my list and it's built up in a way that I'm not sure what my needs are anymore. I'm not sure I can decipher what is a need or my own selfishness.
So as I combat this whole problem in my head and my heart, please keep me in your prayers. I desire to live with joy and peace - and I know God's the only one who can give that to me!
The children are all growing so fast and maturing at a rate I don't think is fair.
We are still here in CA - flying by the seat of our pants.
Trying now to raise preteens in this new age. Well, "tweens" I guess? And a preschooler. Together.
Trying not to cringe when I hear my four year old say, "whatevs" or "Boom! That's what!!" or "Your mama!" See what these "tweens" have done!
Trying not to cheer too loud when I hear my "tweens" spell the word "stupid" or "dumb" for that matter so as to protect the little ears. See what this four year old has done!
The question that lurks within my brain is this one... "What am I going to do once Theo's in kindergarten?" I ask myself this because it is one often asked to me. I reply with something like, "Hopefully I will go back to school and get my masters!" or "I'm not sure, I would love to get a job and start helping Travis out with the finances." But really, I have no clue. I waffle so much and see the benefits of going back to school, getting a job, and staying home to be available. So, I don't know!! The idea of figuring this out almost haunts me.
I know we are financially burdened with me at home with the kids. I know my mind suffers from not being challenged by new learning, that is just how I am wired - it is a burden. I know as the kids get older they continue to need my presence - if not more than before.
My own psychosis has me feel that each one of these choices is selfish. Each one is wrong. There is no right answer. There is no answer that will give me peace. Every way I turn there is this gut feeling that I will never be doing the right thing.
That is where I need God's grace every single day. I need God to fill in the gaps for all the problems of my day. I need God to fill my soul. This sacrifice of me being at home is not wasted, and hopefully the eventual evolution of me working or learning away from the home will not be the undoing of our family.
There's been a self-deprecating habit I have of considering myself less than everyone in my family. My needs are usually last on my list and it's built up in a way that I'm not sure what my needs are anymore. I'm not sure I can decipher what is a need or my own selfishness.
So as I combat this whole problem in my head and my heart, please keep me in your prayers. I desire to live with joy and peace - and I know God's the only one who can give that to me!
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Weekend Bliss
What a lazy weekend! Saturday was full of house crap that was supposed to get done long ago and lazy movie watching. We totally squandered a beautiful day here on pure laziness. I hate it when that happens! But, really Travis hates it more than I do. So we had to make up for it today.
Church was a good reminder today. God is convicting me to pay attention to moments when I can be of service, not waiting for the perfect moment but using what I have already. Good stuff.
After lunch we headed to Pa's Pumpkin Patch. It's such a cheesy, fun place.
A few fun carnival rides, jumpers, carnival games, tons of pumpkins and hay.
What's not to love. Beau won himself a little toy doing this basketball game.
Jack took a fun ride on this swirly ride.
Maizie jumped till her little heart was content in the gigantic jumper.
Theo slept. Beau & Maizie each picked out teeny, tiny little white pumpkins (Jack was too cool and Theo slept). Since our children are so financially conscious, they decided that we could just get our regular Halloween pumpkins at the grocery store because they were cheaper but we should get one white pumpkin just because they look cool.
I will definitely be posting when we carve up these bad boys which doesn't look like it will be happening until Tuesday? What?!
Church was a good reminder today. God is convicting me to pay attention to moments when I can be of service, not waiting for the perfect moment but using what I have already. Good stuff.
After lunch we headed to Pa's Pumpkin Patch. It's such a cheesy, fun place.
What's not to love. Beau won himself a little toy doing this basketball game.
Jack took a fun ride on this swirly ride.
Theo slept. Beau & Maizie each picked out teeny, tiny little white pumpkins (Jack was too cool and Theo slept). Since our children are so financially conscious, they decided that we could just get our regular Halloween pumpkins at the grocery store because they were cheaper but we should get one white pumpkin just because they look cool.
I will definitely be posting when we carve up these bad boys which doesn't look like it will be happening until Tuesday? What?!
Saturday, October 27, 2012
blog update time? I think so.
This twice a year blogging is not a good idea! I forget everything that has ever happened in my life. Well, to recap, we had a very fun summer and are now in the throws of elementary school and holiday season. We are enjoying some serious tear producing fourth grade homework, fun third grade writing projects, and figuring out what to do with a first grader who tests out of homework every week. It's actually really nice to be home with just a 22 month old all week. I feel like I haven't had much time in the past to just enjoy Theo and so it's such a treat to have him all to myself.
I have joined a women's bible study with my friend, Michelle. It meets every Thursday morning and has child care for the fat boy. It has been a blessing to really dig into the Word and it gives me some accountability in that area.
Since the kids are involved in a ton of activities and I am with Theo all day, I have found something for myself to do so that I don't lose my science brain and my desire to commune with nature. I have decided to become a Whalewatch Naturalist at the Cabrillo Marine Aquarium. I am in class every Tuesday night until March learning the biology of every marine mammal, bird, fish... that inhabits or migrates through our lovely area of the ocean. So far the classes are quite intense and there's a ton of information. I love every minute of it. I also totally love all the hippies in my class and their passion for these beautiful animals. If I pass my test in December I will be able to lead groups on the whalewatching tours that the aquarium offers...ON BOATS! I know, cool. So, it's something different and new.
Hopefully it will ease a bit of the discontentment I feel sometimes with being home all the time with the kids. They're such a blessing and a challenge, but I need a bit more connection with the world... and I do love to learn!
So, there's a quick update about the fam....er mostly me. But, hey, I am writing this thing after all!!
I have joined a women's bible study with my friend, Michelle. It meets every Thursday morning and has child care for the fat boy. It has been a blessing to really dig into the Word and it gives me some accountability in that area.
Since the kids are involved in a ton of activities and I am with Theo all day, I have found something for myself to do so that I don't lose my science brain and my desire to commune with nature. I have decided to become a Whalewatch Naturalist at the Cabrillo Marine Aquarium. I am in class every Tuesday night until March learning the biology of every marine mammal, bird, fish... that inhabits or migrates through our lovely area of the ocean. So far the classes are quite intense and there's a ton of information. I love every minute of it. I also totally love all the hippies in my class and their passion for these beautiful animals. If I pass my test in December I will be able to lead groups on the whalewatching tours that the aquarium offers...ON BOATS! I know, cool. So, it's something different and new.
Hopefully it will ease a bit of the discontentment I feel sometimes with being home all the time with the kids. They're such a blessing and a challenge, but I need a bit more connection with the world... and I do love to learn!
So, there's a quick update about the fam....er mostly me. But, hey, I am writing this thing after all!!
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Random Beau
Monday, May 21, 2012
Jack Got Baptized!
Yesterday was a big day for the Wade family! We were so pleased to watch our oldest fella get baptized! He has been thinking about it for a long time and finally felt like he was ready to show everyone his commitment to Christ. He has such a love for God and others, we are excited to see what plans God has for him!
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| Our pastor from Light & Life Christian Fellowship North in Long Beach, Larry Walkemeyer, and Travis walking out into the water with Jack. We are so blessed to have the Pacific Ocean in our backyard! |
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| Jack was so excited! |
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| WOOHOO!!! |
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| There were about 15 other people from our church getting baptized there on Cherry Beach also! It was awesome! |
Friday, March 30, 2012
Theo's First Steps Today!!
Theo took his first steps this morning! Yey! Go Theo Go!
Maizie was home sick today so she got to see this. The boys are going to be so excited when they get home from school!!
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